Boyfriend Brownies

Boy was this a fast week, it seems like yesterday I was just dreading being alone for three days or so on Tuesday and it's already Saturday night.  Why does it seem like time just goes by faster and faster?  I can't believe I've lived here in Norwalk for almost a year now when it feels like I just moved here yesterday.  Where have I been? I feel like all this time has just been taken away from me.  I hardly did much of what I wanted to do when it comes to work and school and although mentally I think I know what I'm supposed to be doing, or what my next step should be, I find myself still dragging along.  Right now I would like to be in school, and by now I mean this very minute on a Saturday night!  Just so I could feel like I'm back to taking my steps again. 

I let myself do a lot of thinking this past few days, asking myself what I wanted out of life right now, my job, and relationship and at the moment I found answers, well sorta.  Anytime I thought about what I wanted and it happened to make sense for that single moment, I quickly lost it and found myself second guessing everything.  Why do I always do that? Why can I not just think of something and just go with it?  It's exactly how I was in High School, granted I wasn't so free spirited about the same things and they weren't dependent on the distant future but back then when I wanted something, I would totally go for it.  

So I spent the end of the week alone working and just enjoying my own company, doing whatever, watching TV, going to the gym, etc, etc... and even baking!  Yes sir!!! I made brownies for the boy, figured it'd be a nice gesture especially considering I missed him (even though he probably doesn't think so), not to mention... these suckers were easy to bake thanks to Duncan Hines.  Stop & Shop had a bangin' sale this week on quite a few goodies, from yogurts, to breakfast food, cakes, brownies, beverages, and.. you get the picture.  I will say I've become quite the chef lately, or so I'll have you believe.  I'm baking a cake this weekend as a late Birthday present for the boy which is definitely going to be intoxicating!  It's going to be a Double Layer Strawberry Cake with Cream Cheese Frosting.  Trust, I won't let myself have much of it, which is why I'm hoping everyone else just inhales it all in one day. 

Speaking of inhaled, tonight the boy and I decided to make dinner (a first in a long time) and it was oh so freaking good!  We're both obsessed with Cubed Steak & Onions and it's exactly what we made, Spanish Cubed Steak & Onions with White Rice, Red Kidney Beans, and a salad on the side.  We seasoned the meat last night and let it marinate until this afternoon in oil & vinegar w/Vidalia Onions.  I don't think it could have soaked up any more flavor, that's how tasty they were.  I'm a fan of black pepper so i went pepper happy with the kidney beans, which, as spicy as it was, was fantastic!  (Note: Going forward I'll post pictures of any successful home cooked meals)

Did I really just sit through Alien, Aliens, and Aliens 3?  It must be late.