Today was a good day

Ahh... Sunday.

This was probably one of the most active Sundays I've had in quite sometime, make that the most active weekend.  I worked Saturday of course, after that I headed over to Waterbury to Help out the Boys Dad get his things out of the house since it's finally sold.  There's a lot that goes on in my mind when I think about everything and anything to do with that part of my life, or rather the Boys life.  As uncomfortable as it felt to actually go there I still went, I went to help out, I went to be there for them, being a part of their family now for such a long time I think I'm allowed to say that it affects me just as well.  It obviously isn't the same, but it still does.  Anyways, I'm not going into that right now, as I said, more on that later. 

As you know, no trip to Waterbury is complete without stopping for some good home cooking at his Grandmother's house.  I think I finally fell in love with slimy seafood again!  We had linguine with clams, and mussels, which were by far the best tasting mussels EVER!  Leave it to his Grandma to hook it up with everything under the sun, even amaretto, not that she did, but if you'd let her, she would.  

Today was great though, and probably one of the ways I'd like to spend every Sunday for the rest of the summer.  We all got up fairly early this morning, which the exception of the Boy, who apparently needs more sleep than others, such a prissy bitch.  Anyways, once we were all up and ready, we headed to the beach, again... the Boy and I were late in meeting the rest of the D-10 because... he was being a... Princess.  We spent a few hours at the beach, literally baking ourselves under the sun.  I think it's safe to say we all look like tomatoes right now, some of us have marks from where we assume we were stung by a couple of jellyfish.  

After a day at the beach we ended up at Red Lobster, what are the odds?! I mean!  =) I'm kidding.  I had an orgasmic dinner myself, called Hawaiian Isles Shrimp & Salmon.  The delicious entree consisted of Crispy jumbo coconut shrimp, paired with spicy pineapple-glazed fresh salmon topped with toasted macadamia nuts and coconut.  Served with wild rice pilaf and pina colada sauce.  I fell in LOVE with the salmon, and the pina colada sauce was... saucy enough to drink!  Everyone knows you can't eat something so good without the perfect drink, and today I had a Sunset Passion Pina Colada, one of my favorites!  

Our waitress ended up being a 10 with everything, from service to friendliness and even comfortable enough to be funny with us when it was needed.  Her name was Tina and she had recently moved up here from down south with her husband.  Both her husband and her are looking for an accountant, so the Boy made himself a new contact since being an accountant is basically what he does for a living. 

All in all this weekend was good, I found time to relax, enjoy myself and the company of others as well as do a couple of fun things together that we all enjoy. 

Allergies

Leave it to me to be the only person probably on the face of the planet with allergies in the middle of July, or maybe it just seems that way.  I can't help but feel completely miserable since last weekend, I found myself getting worse and worse until I finally brought myself to the clinic down the street to see a Doctor.  

Thirty minutes  and $63 dollars later all I have is a really bad case of allergies, or so I'm assuming since the Doctor never actually diagnosed me!  I was given one prescription for a Nasonex, that was $25 after insurance, then I had to get Mucinex D, which was another $15, and Alavert... which fortunately I was able to find in CVS brand for $8.49, add the $15 copay and WHAM!  I pretty much got bitch slapped like a $2 ho!  

Anyhow, hopefully that's enough to get me back to sleeping, even if for just a couple of hours here or there.  I think I would pay anything not to have a night like last night where I didn't really fall asleep... at all.  I think I finally gave up on breathing like a normal person around 3am and passed out around 4am.  It was absolutely horrible, I felt restless, irritable, desperate, anxious... all I wanted was to be able to BREATHE THROUGH MY NOSE!! 

IN OTHER NEWS!!

A driver and his 10 year old son were in this pick up truck when the driver apparently thought the awning might just raise itself up for his trailer... because awnings do that? 

I'd like to know why this idiot wasn't pulling under the awning at my bank... because that would make things a little more interesting at work, as if we already don't see enough freaks around and about in Meriden. 

Boyfriend Brownies

Boy was this a fast week, it seems like yesterday I was just dreading being alone for three days or so on Tuesday and it's already Saturday night.  Why does it seem like time just goes by faster and faster?  I can't believe I've lived here in Norwalk for almost a year now when it feels like I just moved here yesterday.  Where have I been? I feel like all this time has just been taken away from me.  I hardly did much of what I wanted to do when it comes to work and school and although mentally I think I know what I'm supposed to be doing, or what my next step should be, I find myself still dragging along.  Right now I would like to be in school, and by now I mean this very minute on a Saturday night!  Just so I could feel like I'm back to taking my steps again. 

I let myself do a lot of thinking this past few days, asking myself what I wanted out of life right now, my job, and relationship and at the moment I found answers, well sorta.  Anytime I thought about what I wanted and it happened to make sense for that single moment, I quickly lost it and found myself second guessing everything.  Why do I always do that? Why can I not just think of something and just go with it?  It's exactly how I was in High School, granted I wasn't so free spirited about the same things and they weren't dependent on the distant future but back then when I wanted something, I would totally go for it.  

So I spent the end of the week alone working and just enjoying my own company, doing whatever, watching TV, going to the gym, etc, etc... and even baking!  Yes sir!!! I made brownies for the boy, figured it'd be a nice gesture especially considering I missed him (even though he probably doesn't think so), not to mention... these suckers were easy to bake thanks to Duncan Hines.  Stop & Shop had a bangin' sale this week on quite a few goodies, from yogurts, to breakfast food, cakes, brownies, beverages, and.. you get the picture.  I will say I've become quite the chef lately, or so I'll have you believe.  I'm baking a cake this weekend as a late Birthday present for the boy which is definitely going to be intoxicating!  It's going to be a Double Layer Strawberry Cake with Cream Cheese Frosting.  Trust, I won't let myself have much of it, which is why I'm hoping everyone else just inhales it all in one day. 

Speaking of inhaled, tonight the boy and I decided to make dinner (a first in a long time) and it was oh so freaking good!  We're both obsessed with Cubed Steak & Onions and it's exactly what we made, Spanish Cubed Steak & Onions with White Rice, Red Kidney Beans, and a salad on the side.  We seasoned the meat last night and let it marinate until this afternoon in oil & vinegar w/Vidalia Onions.  I don't think it could have soaked up any more flavor, that's how tasty they were.  I'm a fan of black pepper so i went pepper happy with the kidney beans, which, as spicy as it was, was fantastic!  (Note: Going forward I'll post pictures of any successful home cooked meals)

Did I really just sit through Alien, Aliens, and Aliens 3?  It must be late. 

Beach + Robeks = Happiness

I'm So Exhausted!! Today I spend the entire day at Sherwood Island. Every Summer I try to turn myself into a beach bum which isn't really all the possible if you're not living at the beach, or rather, on the beach. I figure I can get close enough by going once a week maybe twice religiously if I could on weekends, and living so close to the shore should make me more beach bum like. As you know Wednesdays are my days off, and I've realized that I'm not satisfied with my days off unless I'm out and about, or at the beach, or just doing something. There have been a few times where I've just stayed home and just felt miserable by night cause I hadn't done anything. I realize it is my day off and it's purpose or part of it is to relax, but honestly I have a hard time relaxing. Especially considering the fact that I've been home alone now for nearly a day and it's too darn quiet, it's nice, but just too quiet. The Boy's away on business, his sister is on vacation and so is our housemate, who's in Maine. This should give me time alone where I can actually think about things, and what my next moves are going to be.

So there I was laying out on the beach, getting my Vitamin D for the day, which for the most part was quite relaxing until I had a few visitors coming my way. I saw them off in the distance and knew they were regulars at the park, but today they were getting closer, and closer, and closer until they finally had me surrounded. I'm talking about GEESE!! I had never seen SO many this close!

They weren't afraid of me or anything, at one point I think I was more afraid of them, or just this one particular goose that was literally eyeing me the entire time. I don't know what he wanted, or expected from me. I didn't have any food out, nor do I think I look like food either... scary! I should make myself an "I survived a goose attack" t-shirt.

I don't really know what I'm doing for dinner tonight, or soon. Earlier I had stopped by Robeks Juice and had myself a South Pacific Breeze Smoothie that was ab.so.lute.ly delicious! I think I would do anything for a smoothie, I don't kid when I say that either. Why didn't I go with a large?

Last night I went out to the gym around midnight and didn't come home until after 1AM. It wasn't so bad, I like going later simply cause there's no one else there and its just, less intimidating, not that it is all the time, it's just nicer to have it all to myself. We'll see what happens tonight, should I stay or should I go?

... great

I'm not going to sell my car, I can't. The day was going fine and I don't even know how it started, but the boy says if I move with him I have to get rid of my car, I don't want to, i refuse.  I had the car for two years now and I can't see myself just going from having a car, to suddenly not having on, regardless of the fact that it wouldn't be used in the City IF I decide to go.  What happens, say if I do move into the city live there for however long (not long because I won't allow it) then move out of the city and suddenly need a car, what am I just supposed to go out and start all over again?  Makes absolutely no sense what-so-ever.  

The Third

Today, work was intense and full of the worlds biggest idiots.  I'm glad it's done and over with because I was literally on the verge or cursing someone out.  Bad enough I yelled at someone for just being complete waste of space.  I mean, come on - some things are just common sense. 

So other than that, I was fine on my way home, called my Mom and spoke with her for a while, she was just getting things ready for their big day at the beach tomorrow.  I miss them SO much.  July 4Th in my family was always a big deal, year after year we would go all out, literally bringing our entire homes Rocky Neck State Park.  It was always a race with hundreds of others throughout the state to see who can get there first and the best picnic spot in the entire park.  So many memories, and trips back and forth to the car dragging supplies back and forth, listening to my Dad bitch about how he was left to do all the work, carry all the stuff (literally), set up the canopy, start the grill... none of which was ever really his "thing" but he was always stuck doing it year after year, even though he swore he was never going to do it again.  I feel bad now for laughing at him all those times.   

This year, I'm not really doing anything for the 4Th, nothing major was planned at all.  My sisters have made their own plans, one's going to the beach and the other to her husbands family's house for a cookout.  It bothers me, a whole lot... not that I would have joined either but more because we aren't doing anything with each other.  I thought since we all stilled lived fairly close to each other that we would at least plan something out in advance.  I'm over it, I'm over it... no - I'm really not but there's nothing I could do about that now, is there?

So today I found out the boy actually knows about this blog.  How does that make me feel? Weird, but fine I suppose.  I don't really know why I thought maybe he wouldn't find it, or figure out I was writing on here but he does and that's fine.  Be warned... I'm not holding back. 

Sun Burn!

View of the sky, obviously

  
Yes! 

I know it's rather unhealthy to be glad about getting burned by the sun, I just can't help it!  It actually makes me feel like summer is here!  Laying out under the bright sun and puffy white clouds was AMAZING!  If you're as big a fan of beaches as I am along with sun bathing, than you understand exactly where I'm coming from.  

 

View from Sherwood Island's East Beach

Connecticut beaches aren't tropical but they'll do, even if you sometimes can't see your feet through the water, and it's more green and blurry than clear and blue.  I love it!!!

View of... yeah. You get it.

Weekend at Bantam Lake

This weekend was a very relaxing weekend, the boy and I had taken our housemate up on an invitation to the lake house at Bantam Lake in Morris, CT. Last time I had gone was about a year ago, but this time we'd be spending the night, a night with no cell phone service, no land line, no cable, and no Internet. Scary I tell you, but I'm stuck in the middle of liking it and not liking it. It was peaceful, but e-x-t-r-e-m-e-l-y dark at night.  So dark I think I saw every star I could have possibly seen at night.

I did have fun though, I got to spend time with the boy without him being attached to that annoying video game he just so happens to be playing right now.  We went fishing, I hadn't gone fishing since I was in the 5Th grade, which means forever ago! I didn't have much luck the first night, we fished for a few hours, until about dusk, I of course snapped pictures in between the fishes I never caught that night (some of which I plan to post on here... pictures that is).   After fishing we decided to grill a bit, we had a charcoal grill and that was fun, and when I use the word fun I mean the complete opposite.  If there's one tip I could give out it's to ALWAYS READ DIRECTIONS!!  I could have burned my eyebrows right off, luckily I didn't, they're still intact.  

The three of us stayed up playing settlers that night until very late, we even managed to go find ice cream at an Irving station in the middle of the night.  One thing I don't know is how I managed to wake up at 6 am the next morning to watch the sunrise and fish some more.  We all know how I am when it comes to getting up most mornings for work, ha!  Although I was half asleep, swollen from lack of sleep and had my eyes wide shut, I caught quite a few fish!  So many (I think about 4) that I was already for a nap by 9! 

All in all the weekend was great, I fished, I grubbed, I sorta slept and spent time with the boy.  In conclusion I know how much I hate bugs, and yeah - bugs.  If only immersing yourself in nature without bugs around were possible, than it would be ultimate!  We're definitely going to spend more time up there this summer.